In life, we lose MANY thing. We lose friends, life partners/ partners, family, home, money, and our very own lives. These losses cannot be gained again nor can it be replaced because just because the item that had replaced the old one doesn’t mean it’s the SAME. That includes money, the $100 you received from your grandma that you will never see again won’t be worth as much as the $200 or another $100 the person promises to give back to you. But in life, you sometimes have to make sacrifices for your loved ones, even if it is your lousy brother. I realized for the first time in me life, I wouldn’t know how I will react if I lost my loved ones/ things.
I had realized this in my English class when we did an activity, a very simple activity yet so devastating. Take three pieces of paper and individually write your Dream, Talent, and Love. Or what I thought more affecting would be getting whole bunch of pieces of paper and writing things/ people you know you can NEVER live without. Now put it in a hat and choose one. Don’t lie to yourself. Don’t choose again. Face reality. Whatever you wrote on that piece of paper is now lost. How do you feel? If you feel nothing, that means you didn’t write down your MOST precious things that you CAN’T LIVE without. Does your heart wrench at just the thought of it or is your mind spinning out of control saying, “No. No. No” ? Guess what? It’s possible.
Reason why it’s MORE of a dramatic moment for me:
Before I had never thought of ANOTHER person dying, I never liked thinking about it. This actually makes sense I have Thanatophobia (fear of death) which got A LOT better than before. I used to have attacks where I would suddenly think about myself dying and my heart will just feel like it stopped, my heart rate will hasten, a cold sweat will run through, and my brain felt like it would explode. At those times, I feel like screaming, I feel like bashing my head to get rid of those thoughts it’s just horrible. It got better to the point where I just have to take long breaths and calm my mind instead of crying or other activities I did to get my mind off the fear. I remember I had those attacks in classes when my class started talking about dying or when my parents will say something like “Oh. I’m going to die soon”, those times were the worst since I felt like running out of the room or telling them to shut up.
Anyway back to the main topic. You HAVE to face reality. I realized this more these days because for one, I’m not in the bad stages of Thanatophobia and two, my dad has high blood pressure and that is REALLY bad. Also a lot of my relatives are in the hospitals due to illnesses and I’m starting to realize that life isn’t all that great as Disney movies and such portray it as. People die and losses do happen. You can’t prevent this because the world itself is a cycle of losses and gains. Yes, there are unfortunate but so what? You HAVE to move on, you can’t be stuck in the past forever. I KNOW it’s hard and I KNOW it’s hypocritical of me saying this since I don’t exactly yet know what it feels like to lose something precious but REMEMBER this- Life is a cycle of losses& gains and it’s better to try to move on then stay in the past. Without moving on, what will you be achieving? What exactly are you doing? Are you doing nothing? If so, now what? Are you just going to let one great obstacle stop you from moving on or will you keep moving? Will you climb over that obstacle and conquer it?
To this very day, I don’t know what exactly I will do when that time comes but I know I will be devastated. I had been bullied before and I KNOW the feeling of the WHOLE class turning on you. I KNOW how it feels to be isolated, even if I ‘m still stuck in the past trying to overcome the fear of betrayal. I’m TRYING. And I hope you try too because it’s NEVER too late to start again.
A great example of this is Luffy:
I SERIOUSLY recommend watching this anime (One Piece) if you get the chance to. Or reading the manga. Although the drawing is pretty bad in the beginning, it improves and the story line is a pure genius.
Anther great example is from Naruto:
Another recommendation ;)
Watched ALL of them and my reaction: